Haha, yeah. The courier probably has the biggest turnaround of any bethesda game protagonist. They go from a completely anonymous average person delivering packages to being essentially a demigod capable of pretty much anything. No fate, no destiny, no special heritage, just you and your choices.
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In New Vegas, it will make sense for your character to look any way they want. In the game’s story, nice clean things are available but restricted to the rich and powerful. The player, however, is the most powerful and the most influential as to who ends up getting what by the end of the game.
To be honest, this is what kept me from playing it at first as well. It’s a pretty old game, but mods can help a lot toward making it easier on the eyes. With Vortex through Nexus modding is super easy nowadays.
Since New Vegas isn’t on your list it has to be my top recommendation. Of all games I’ve ever played, New Vegas is the most reactive to and acknowledging of the insane and unbelievable things the player does. The actions the player takes have permanent effects in the game, and everyone affected will know that the player is responsible for whatever happened and say so. You personally control the fate of every community in the Mojave. In other games, you are powerful on behalf of the story, but in New Vegas you personally are all the power in the entire game.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Technology@beehaw.org•Tinder tests letting users set a 'height preference'7·1 month agoTinder is an app where you look at pictures of people and on that basis alone decide whether to go out. It’s even easier to lie about height than to take a misleading picture. I’m really not sure if this would make any difference at all. Everyone frustrated on tinder will continue to be exactly as frustrated on tinder while tinder squeezes them all.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Technology@beehaw.org•My theory about the easy to spot bots in YouTube comments21·2 months agoThey could be having that effect. Scams that look obvious are to attract people who fall for obvious scams, such as people with dementia. They are designed to be transparent to most people because they don’t need anybody clicking that has the faculties to know better than to fall for the rest of the scam.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Gaming@beehaw.org•Former PlayStation exec says "$70 or $80" games are a "steal": "As long as people choose carefully how they spend their money, I don't think they should be complaining"15·2 months ago$80? How much is that, like 4 bananas?
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Politics@beehaw.org•Republicans slide "nonprofit killer" law into tax bill4·2 months agoRepublicans are getting rid of all pretenses average people use to justify the function of our society. Non-profits shouldn’t exist and the real government should be addressing all the problems they have historically been leaving to burnt out newly grads begging for money from corporate funders, mitigating the problem slightly, and showing up for corporate media campaigns about how happy the few people they helped are about it. We used to pretend this was a solution and now the pretend solution is being taken away.
Honestly, it’s a great source of truly stupid ideas. It’s convenient to have a total idiot on hand at all times to make dumb suggestions when asked, inspiring me to think of something better since the standard was set so low.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Politics@beehaw.org•Trump says he ‘doesn’t rule out’ using military force to control Greenland19·2 months agoI think the main reason Trump wants Greenland is because it looks larger than the entire US on a flat map and he forgot the Earth is actually round.
Happy Birthday! Sounds like you’re having the kind of birthday you want to have today.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Gaming@beehaw.org•BDS calls for boycott of Microsoft and Xbox gaming products over alleged Israeli military connections6·3 months agoIt doesn’t have to be all or nothing, because in that case it usually ends up being nothing. If you have the desire to limit what you described in any way you can as much as you can, it’ll be something. If everyone does as much as they can, it’ll be a huge something.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto World News@beehaw.org•Fire at Tesla dealership near Rome destroys 17 cars7·4 months agoHonestly, I’ve been hearing about Tesla fires for a long time. The batteries are extremely delicate and once they catch fire there’s not a lot you can do about it because of the sheer intensity of the heat. These fires happen all the time and they often effect the property around them. In this instance there doesn’t appear to be any evidence it’s not the Teslas lighting themselves on fire as usual. It is however a great scapegoat that malicious actors could be lighting the vehicles on fire rather than it just being that the vehicles have always been very unsafe.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgOPto Gaming@beehaw.org•Zelda: Breath of the Wild is a Masterpiece, Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom is an Indulgence2·4 months agoThis is very interesting to me because I wanted to keep going after BoTW ended. ToTK is like a full game sized DLC with all new gameplay elements, so it was exactly what I wanted. It’s kind of like an indulgent victory lap showing off all the cool stuff the engine can do with some new tools to play with. I will say that this is enough for me. Really hoping they do something completely original again.
I relate to this heavily, especially what seems like your guilt about it which I relate to the most.
In my case I was raised in an emotionally neglectful environment which suppresses the generation of the self during childhood. As a result, I learned (unconsciously) that I personally have no inherent value, so my value to the human race was tied exactly to my “objective” provable contribution to it. If I could demonstrate my value by helping others, then perhaps one day I would earn the love from somewhere that I didn’t receive from my thoroughly traumatized parents.
There are a few problems with this trauma logic. First, it doesn’t work. People appreciate good deeds, but love and appreciation come from compatibility and trust which I learned that I don’t actually have to work toward to earn. I found that people whose relationship was based on my service to them (like I was raised to seek) aren’t actually connected to me in any way. Second, it is disturbing to live this way because it feels as dishonest as it is. It felt like I was tricking people because I actually was presenting to everyone an image which was cultivated for personal safety as a child rather than for actual connection. I could sense (due to my heightened awareness of other’s emotional states, again, for childhood safety) that others knew I wasn’t being completely genuine and could never truly connect with me. Finally, this approach generates self hatred. Why would I have to hide my true self from the world if my true self wasn’t awful and horrendous? I can tell you I have had thoughts so disturbing I would never commit them to the written word. I thought that was my true self that I had to constantly work against with my paragon persona. As I’ve been getting away from co-dependent and people pleasing behaviors and expressing myself more genuinely, those thoughts that came from me feeling isolated and cornered have lessened. Those thoughts were and are nothing more than the consequence of trauma, not my true self.
I have no idea whether you would relate to any of the above. But I can say that people don’t get to the point where you are and where I have been multiple times in my life without trauma being involved. Trauma fucks you up, makes you feel guilty, and makes you want to isolate. This makes it tricky to find others who are as fucked up by trauma as you are. I have by some fortune found a few of them. It can be incredibly cathartic to talk to other traumatized people and joke about things that the rest of the world would never willingly even think about. It also gave me some perspective. I always assumed my childhood experiences weren’t that bad because my parents always compared what they did to me to what their parents did to them which was even to a child an obviously far worse. By sharing with others what I experienced, I’ve learned that it was actually very bad, I’m not over-reacting, and it makes complete sense that I would come out the other end traumatized with the feeling that living life is a constant struggle which I would be relieved to be absolved of.
As far as systemic issues, what we’re living through now is more typical of the human experience than what our parents experienced. The world is a vastly intricate web of beauty and horrors. We have the advantage and disadvantage of not flinching at the horrors and taking them completely on. This gives us a better perspective of the world’s problems, many of which are frustratingly fixable, but also gives us the consequence which everyone else intuitively avoids. I would never suggest to anyone to bury their head in the sand, only to suggest that there is a greater reality intermixed with and beyond the horrors.
I watched a video of dozens of Palestinians joyfully dancing and celebrating with their friends and family during the height of the genocide. I can’t forget about it because even through they were living through one of the worst things which can be inflicted on a group of people, they understood that joy and community was what they were preserving and could help them all through. I’ve personally never had that, hence my solution to the problems of the world being similar to your solution. Escape them since there’s not much to lose anyway. That’s pretty sick that you and I would ever think that way and the circumstances which caused that are beyond unfair.
I’m far from out of the woods myself, but exposing the parts of myself which I’ve always been ashamed of to people who understand what we went through has hinted to me that some kind of reclamation of my right as a human being is possible. If no one has ever told you, Pete Hahnloser, you deserve to experience some measure of joy and comfort in this life and you deserve to believe that you deserve it and can have it. I’ve never had faith of been very hopeful in my life, and those things have always felt foolish to me, but I’m starting to understand why those things are important for most people. I hope you can find some comfort, whatever you decide.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Technology@beehaw.org•Christie's First-Ever AI Art Auction Earns $728,000, Plus Controversy12·4 months agoCutting out the artist middleman in their money-laundering scheme. What a joke.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Politics@beehaw.org•Government Workers Cannot Be Fired for Their Political Views29·5 months agoOdd phrasing in the title. Of course they can. They can do anything. They understand that the real question is what anyone is going to do about it when they break the law.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Technology@beehaw.org•Microsoft Study Finds AI Makes Human Cognition “Atrophied and Unprepared”9·5 months agoMicrosoft likely considers this to be a feature rather than a bug. Another avenue for brainwashing credulous people is wide open.
Kwakigra@beehaw.orgto Politics@beehaw.org•Netanyahu gifted Trump a golden pager during their meeting in Washington8·5 months agoIndiscriminate is the correct word. They were detonated all at the same time regardless of where their targets location at the time. Civilians were killed, including children.
And the Nintendo of my childhood was responsible for pretty much every anti-consumer practice and cultural trend concerning videogames during my childhood:
Inventing the idea that videogames are toys only for little boys only for marketing purposes. Betraying and exploiting established relationships with developers. Screwing over partners on disc technology and reversing course to limit technology to be under their control. Supporting Jack Thompson throughout his campaign to ban all videogames with any adult content at all. Lawsuit after lawsuit after lawsuit to hold the entire industry back. The list goes on.