Ups and downs. Back at the gym but only doing 15lbs per arm. It’s embarrassing and a bit boring because I’m not feeling that burn, but the important thing is that I’m moving and my tendon isn’t hurting too much.

Not sure if I’ve gone into my issues with sleep deprivation, but since I moved my cat has been running around the house howling all night. I thought it was because my commute is longer and she wasn’t getting enough playtime. I started trying to wear her out before bed every day, but she wasn’t getting any better. I finally figured it out one day when I realized that she wouldn’t chase a toy into my bedroom. I don’t know why she was avoiding the room, but I tidied the floor and started leaving treats in there for her while I’m away. She’s slowly started sleeping next to me again, and I feel much better.

I feel like I dropped the ball with one of my friends (?) though. I don’t know if anyone remembers, but a few months back I took some space away from a toxic friend group, citing an OCD episode I was having at the time. I truly didn’t intend to ghost them but since then I’ve realized that I let one particular guy who used to be my bestie push me around and make me feel insane.

He messaged me a few days ago and I got a big anxiety spike and never opened it. I think with everything we’ve been through together he deserves honesty, I just couldn’t make myself talk to him. The worst part is I’m sure he just sent me a goofy meme or something.

So basically things are improving, but my weaknesses are still glaring.

That’s a good idea! Occasionally I find a picture that hits different and put it on the corkboard that was supposed to be for art references. Could transfer em over to lonely photo wall.

The accounts weren’t against the rules when a random user reported them, but suddenly were when the press asked about them. How mysterious.

I’ve never had homemade apple cider before! I bet that’s gonna be delicious

Oh thanks! I kinda lost track of this thread as soon as the work week started, but I’ll give this a shot soon.

Damn, you’re killing it with the reading! Good for you.

I’m grouchy. I don’t like my new apartment, I don’t like my new town. I’m on light duty and I hate the work. Between moving and family obligations and injuries I’ve barely been to the gym this quarter, and I feel like I’m losing strength.

At my last place, I printed a bunch of photos from fun and significant experiences and hung them up. My family rarely did pictures and never hung them up or even kept track of them, so this was a big thing for me.

Opened up the box to unpack it yesterday. A lot of them were of friends I don’t speak to anymore. That just leaves photo of my family, who I have really conflicted feelings about. I don’t think I feel right hanging them up anymore.

I’ll give it a shot, thanks

EDIT: no luck so far, just “unsupported URL”. My Google fu might be weak but I can’t find anyone else saying they did it, either.

Fair. I didn’t wanna push the “don’t ask for specific media” rule, but I figured asking people their methods was OK because that’s info anyone can use.

Here’s the link. Literally the only one I can find that’s not either a mislabeled Cuckoo For Coco Cards, One False Movie, or in terrible looking 360p.

Thank you ❤️

I hadn’t thought about that, thanks for the suggestion! I’ll have to triple check with my insurance because they’ve been rejecting everything lately 😬

I hadn’t heard that, that’s interesting. Occam’s razor suggests I just overdid it on bicep curls, but that’s still good to know!

Horrible. Had some slight elbow pain at the gym. Went to the doctor. Told to keep it in a brace and not bend it. I swear the compression and the stiffness are making it worse, it’s gone from a little bit of pain beside my elbow to moderate pain all down my arm.

People keep insisting it feels worse than it is and acting like I’m being stubborn when I say it wasn’t that bad at first. Everyone’s saying shit unprompted like “tennis elbow never gets better” or “we’re not ‘treating you like’ you’re disabled, chronic pain is a real disability!”

My doctor told me that if, in the future, I do any kind of movement and it hurts my arm, I need to remember to “not do that movement again” because it’ll cause re-injury. So I guess I’m not supposed to lift weights for the rest of my life?

It’s really getting to my head. It just felt like a little bruise beside my elbow. It’s not like they did any imaging and found something horrible, why is everyone acting like it’s over?

I never even got to be buff… I was so malnourished it took me years to get visible muscles, and they were never impressive 😮‍💨 I had a stupid daydream of being an attractive butch

So Disney wants to make it so if you have a Disney+ account, they’re allowed to kill you.

Not a great strategy for retaining customers, gang.

Unless you’re an American Twitter employee— in which case, my condolences— I don’t see how this is less worthy of celebration.

I feel bad because someone paid for a ticket and sat there filming for 90 minutes but I can’t stand them.

That sounds like a headache! For all your trouble, I hope you get a good lease.

Update, management took my eggs two days before the lease ended. I love renting

Oh yeah they’re edible. But I buy them in a big box and I immediately recycled the box part of the packaging and they’re in a flimsy carton with no outer walls, so securing them in the car will suck 😅

Also no need to apologize! I don’t have a frothing hatred for hoarders or anything. It makes no sense to me to resent people for something that affects their quality of life.

In my family’s case it just sucked because my parent had access to mental healthcare but didn’t take advantage of it, and it affected myself, my siblings, and our pets. I go back and forth on how much I actually blame them, but at the end of the day it’s still bad memories and I hate that I keep associating them with my new place.

I have everything moved to my new apartment finally (except the eggs, they’re gonna suck to move), but I’m not out of the woods yet. I was raised by a hoarder and having boxes stacked in every corner is making me feel filthy.

I started going back to the gym because I couldn’t stand being away any longer. Not sure if that was a good idea because I’m exhausted all the time.

My neighbor who thinks we’re friends because he talks about himself all the time and I’m too meek to stop him actually invited himself inside to talk about himself today, and I wasn’t butch enough to do anything about it.

So yeah, I don’t know. Technically improving, but still bad.

Thank you, that’s very kind. I’m making progress!