I’m finally beginning to escape a 6 month long depressive episode. I’m beginning to feel happy again, and I can finally find joy in my hobbies. Not everything is going great right now and I’m still struggling to get by, but things are beginning to look up. Hopefully, I can harness this newfound energy to finally begin to deal with everything looming over me.

I’m also beginning to read some leftist books. I’ve picked up “Black Metal Rainbows” by Daniel Lukes, et. al, and I’ve grabbed a copy of “Debt: The First 5,000 Years” by David Graeber. I’m hoping to read some other titles when I get the chance. Hopefully, I can get back into reading again, it’s a great break from staring at a screen all day.

I’ve read half of Black Metal Rainbows so far, and I think it’s pretty good, even as someone who isn’t in very deep the black metal scene. The book is a collection of essays, art, stories, and interviews, and so far I’ve read about topics ranging from anti-fascism and removing fascist and nazi bands from metal, queer artists and their experiences in the scene, feminism, sex work, men’s mental health and DSBM, and an interview with Dødheimsgard (my beloved). I’d highly recommend it if you are interested in black metal or leftist communities in metal.

https://blackmetalrainbows.bandcamp.com/album/black-metal-rainbows